https://www.facebook.com/pages/Rebecca-Higgs-2012-The-Year-of-Dreams-becoming-Reality/145500858894730
Have decided to start a facebook page - as I am on FB quite regularly and can access it easily from my phone.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Lapband debate.
I'm not going to post about it because what am I going to achieve.
You can make up your own mind.
Read the debate here : https://www.facebook.com/12wbt?sk=wall&filter=2
Scroll down until you get to the post by Michelle which starts as follows:
http://www.12wbt.com/round-3-2011/forums/general-discussion/topics/a-message-to-mish-re-lapbanding-article
You can make up your own mind.
Read the debate here : https://www.facebook.com/12wbt?sk=wall&filter=2
Scroll down until you get to the post by Michelle which starts as follows:
And if you have access to the forums you can read a few comments in reply from some lapbanders.
http://www.12wbt.com/round-3-2011/forums/general-discussion/topics/a-message-to-mish-re-lapbanding-article
Saturday, October 15, 2011
New Goals for 2012 - just putting them out there
1. To be able to run (and hopefully run 10km or more)
2. To be a role model
3. To have a baby
4. To reach goal weight (under 80kg) and goal size (12)
5. To have arm surgery to remove the excess skin (gotta save lots for this one)
6. To write a book (or start one at least or finish the one I started 15yrs ago)
7. To meet as many of my Facebook friends in person (that I haven't already met yet) and thank them for their support
8. To do something amazing like many of my friends have done (run marathons, skydive, do a triathlon, become a PT maybe? etc)
9. Travel
10. Get a tattoo
Monday, October 10, 2011
Week 5 - 12wbt Challenge
Week 5 has brought a challenge of pictorial proportions.
I chose to focus my montage only on the past couple of months.
Here it is.
I chose to focus my montage only on the past couple of months.
Here it is.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
I am no cheater!!!
If one more person calls me a god damn cheater because I have a lap-band I am going to cyber-slap them (if the comment comes from someone online) or punch them (if they say it to my face).
Why do people assume that having a lap-band is cheating?
What exactly is easy about major surgery and changing your lifestyle?
At 190kg I could hardly move. I was pre-diabetic, had high cholesterol, high blood pressure, irregular and heavy periods, a fatty liver, really bad knees that hubby had to massage every morning so I could get out of bed and go to work. It really wasn't a choice, it was some form of Weight loss surgery or die. I looked into all the different types of WLS and chose the lap-band.
I found a really good blog post about this too - someone who has experienced this
http://amandawls.blogspot.com/2010/06/so-is-having-lap-band-cheating.html
I don't think people realize that having a lap-band is hard work, often a lot more work than not having one (and prior to having mine removed for an emergency I had contemplated having it removed by choice because it was getting to be too much hard work). I still have to eat healthy foods (if I don't, I gain weight same as any normal person). I still have to exercise.
The lap-band only acts as a tool to restrict the amount of food that I can consume in one sitting, instead of being able to sit down to a dinner of mixed grill, mash and coleslaw folowed by half a tub of ice-cream (a regular meal 5 years ago) because I was a habitual and emotional over-eater to now having a small bread-plate sized meal (or entree size when out). Instead of me eating 5000 calories a day, I am now eating 900-1200 calories a day and satisfied with that amount of food. I am still exercising 6 days a week (and trying to burn about 500 calories a day)
The lap-band is a tool I have to monitor on a regular basis. If I overeat even just a little bit I suffer for it, chest pains, sometimes regurgitating. It's a terrible thing to not chew your food properly when you are out to dinner with friends and have to excuse yourself from the table to go relieve yourself in the bathroom and try not to cry from the pain in public.
We aren't allowed to get gastro/food poisoning. Sometimes gastro/food poisoning can manifest itself in severe chest pains and no vomiting which requires a trip to hospital and heaps of morphine and tests to make sure it's not your heart because the symptoms are similar. That happened to me at work a few years ago - had food poisoning but didn't realize it until later on at the hospital after numerous tests. Work thought I was having a heart attack and called an ambulance and I was rushed to Sir Charles Gardiner hospital.
A bout of gastro/food poisoning can also cause slippage. In June 2011, I had gastro. But this time I didn't feel as bad and no chest pains so just let it go. Was sick for a couple of days and was actually vomiting (which is rare) but after those few days I felt fine again. 3 weeks later I started getting sick and thought I had a virus. I was finding it difficult to eat or drink and when I could eat usually at night I was vomiting in my sleep. This was because those 2 days of gastro had pushed my stomach over the band causing a pouch that couldn't drain any way other than out of the mouth. A colleague at work forced me to make an appointment to see my GP who then advised me to see my lap-band doctor. I went and saw the lap-band fill doctor with the intent of getting the fill removed to see if that would fix things. It didn't, I ended up being admitted to hospital that afternoon and on a 250ml/hr drip. The following day it was removed :( So please tell me that I am still a cheater for going through that pain? huh?
So, I had it removed and had to learn how to cope without it. I tried very hard to eat right and exercise and kept a diary of every bit of food I ate or drank. I was doing everything by the book and yet I was gaining weight. I did research on the internet and spoke with my doctor as to why I would be gaining the weight. The answer was short and simple, remove the band, the stomach remembers its pre-band self and attempts to return to the previous lifestyle and tricks your brain into thinking like your pre-band self. Whilst I was doing the right thing exercise and food wise my stomach was rebelling against me and holding onto every single calorie in fear of being starved, because to my stomach I had been under-feeding it for 4.5yrs. The Dr said I could gain back all the weight I lost and then some. Well who wants to add back over 70kg of weight and more? Not me.
As my lap-band doctor saw me as a success he was willing to do the replacement surgery at no out of pocket for me. And it was a no-brainer. Something that originally cost me $2500 out of pocket (which is another reason why it's not cheating because who wants to fork over that much money unless there is a good reason for it?) was now being done for FREE. I do think some people who call it cheating are secretly wishing they could have it done but can't afford it or don't have Private Health Insurance.
Similar to someone with a food allergy/intolerance, I too have to watch what type of foods I eat. Everyone is different, but we all have certain foods that we cannot eat as a banded person. For me that was white bread, white rice, white pasta, hot chips, doughnuts and any other stodgy foods. It's great that I cannot eat these foods as they are not necessarily good foods. But there are still foods that are bad for me that I can eat - chocolate, ice-cream, calorie laden drinks (milkshakes), crisps just to name a few. So it is still hard work to make sure I don't eat them. The band isn't a miracle that stops you from eating all bad foods, it just helps you eat less. And before you tell me I can eat less without a band, then if that was the case I wouldn't have gotten to 190kg in the first place.
If having WLS was cheating then the weight would have dropped off me in a rate of knots instead of taking me 4.5yrs to lose. I have to confront my demons like anyone else, the band actually forces me to confront my demons full on and find alternative ways to resolve emotional baggage. I can't go have an emotional binge and then hit the gym the next day (and I am sure some of you have done that), instead I have to confront the issues as I can't binge. Sometimes I wish I could binge, just to have that day of junk food but it's a good thing I can't.
If having a lap-band is cheating, then what about the following things are they cheating too?
VIAGARA
Breast Enhancements
Using a battery operated toothbrush versus a manual one
Using a vibrator instead of finding a man
I could go on but my gutter mind would overtake this post, so I refrain.
Anways. I am NO CHEATER.
Well actually I am - I am cheating death for now.
Bec xxx
Why do people assume that having a lap-band is cheating?
What exactly is easy about major surgery and changing your lifestyle?
At 190kg I could hardly move. I was pre-diabetic, had high cholesterol, high blood pressure, irregular and heavy periods, a fatty liver, really bad knees that hubby had to massage every morning so I could get out of bed and go to work. It really wasn't a choice, it was some form of Weight loss surgery or die. I looked into all the different types of WLS and chose the lap-band.
I found a really good blog post about this too - someone who has experienced this
http://amandawls.blogspot.com/2010/06/so-is-having-lap-band-cheating.html
I don't think people realize that having a lap-band is hard work, often a lot more work than not having one (and prior to having mine removed for an emergency I had contemplated having it removed by choice because it was getting to be too much hard work). I still have to eat healthy foods (if I don't, I gain weight same as any normal person). I still have to exercise.
The lap-band only acts as a tool to restrict the amount of food that I can consume in one sitting, instead of being able to sit down to a dinner of mixed grill, mash and coleslaw folowed by half a tub of ice-cream (a regular meal 5 years ago) because I was a habitual and emotional over-eater to now having a small bread-plate sized meal (or entree size when out). Instead of me eating 5000 calories a day, I am now eating 900-1200 calories a day and satisfied with that amount of food. I am still exercising 6 days a week (and trying to burn about 500 calories a day)
The lap-band is a tool I have to monitor on a regular basis. If I overeat even just a little bit I suffer for it, chest pains, sometimes regurgitating. It's a terrible thing to not chew your food properly when you are out to dinner with friends and have to excuse yourself from the table to go relieve yourself in the bathroom and try not to cry from the pain in public.
We aren't allowed to get gastro/food poisoning. Sometimes gastro/food poisoning can manifest itself in severe chest pains and no vomiting which requires a trip to hospital and heaps of morphine and tests to make sure it's not your heart because the symptoms are similar. That happened to me at work a few years ago - had food poisoning but didn't realize it until later on at the hospital after numerous tests. Work thought I was having a heart attack and called an ambulance and I was rushed to Sir Charles Gardiner hospital.
A bout of gastro/food poisoning can also cause slippage. In June 2011, I had gastro. But this time I didn't feel as bad and no chest pains so just let it go. Was sick for a couple of days and was actually vomiting (which is rare) but after those few days I felt fine again. 3 weeks later I started getting sick and thought I had a virus. I was finding it difficult to eat or drink and when I could eat usually at night I was vomiting in my sleep. This was because those 2 days of gastro had pushed my stomach over the band causing a pouch that couldn't drain any way other than out of the mouth. A colleague at work forced me to make an appointment to see my GP who then advised me to see my lap-band doctor. I went and saw the lap-band fill doctor with the intent of getting the fill removed to see if that would fix things. It didn't, I ended up being admitted to hospital that afternoon and on a 250ml/hr drip. The following day it was removed :( So please tell me that I am still a cheater for going through that pain? huh?
So, I had it removed and had to learn how to cope without it. I tried very hard to eat right and exercise and kept a diary of every bit of food I ate or drank. I was doing everything by the book and yet I was gaining weight. I did research on the internet and spoke with my doctor as to why I would be gaining the weight. The answer was short and simple, remove the band, the stomach remembers its pre-band self and attempts to return to the previous lifestyle and tricks your brain into thinking like your pre-band self. Whilst I was doing the right thing exercise and food wise my stomach was rebelling against me and holding onto every single calorie in fear of being starved, because to my stomach I had been under-feeding it for 4.5yrs. The Dr said I could gain back all the weight I lost and then some. Well who wants to add back over 70kg of weight and more? Not me.
As my lap-band doctor saw me as a success he was willing to do the replacement surgery at no out of pocket for me. And it was a no-brainer. Something that originally cost me $2500 out of pocket (which is another reason why it's not cheating because who wants to fork over that much money unless there is a good reason for it?) was now being done for FREE. I do think some people who call it cheating are secretly wishing they could have it done but can't afford it or don't have Private Health Insurance.
Similar to someone with a food allergy/intolerance, I too have to watch what type of foods I eat. Everyone is different, but we all have certain foods that we cannot eat as a banded person. For me that was white bread, white rice, white pasta, hot chips, doughnuts and any other stodgy foods. It's great that I cannot eat these foods as they are not necessarily good foods. But there are still foods that are bad for me that I can eat - chocolate, ice-cream, calorie laden drinks (milkshakes), crisps just to name a few. So it is still hard work to make sure I don't eat them. The band isn't a miracle that stops you from eating all bad foods, it just helps you eat less. And before you tell me I can eat less without a band, then if that was the case I wouldn't have gotten to 190kg in the first place.
If having WLS was cheating then the weight would have dropped off me in a rate of knots instead of taking me 4.5yrs to lose. I have to confront my demons like anyone else, the band actually forces me to confront my demons full on and find alternative ways to resolve emotional baggage. I can't go have an emotional binge and then hit the gym the next day (and I am sure some of you have done that), instead I have to confront the issues as I can't binge. Sometimes I wish I could binge, just to have that day of junk food but it's a good thing I can't.
If having a lap-band is cheating, then what about the following things are they cheating too?
VIAGARA
Breast Enhancements
Using a battery operated toothbrush versus a manual one
Using a vibrator instead of finding a man
I could go on but my gutter mind would overtake this post, so I refrain.
Anways. I am NO CHEATER.
Well actually I am - I am cheating death for now.
Bec xxx
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
It's weigh in day again
I recorded another loss of 1.5kg. That means 7.5kg lost since the day of the operation (2 wks ago). Go me :-)
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Bored, No - you shouldn't so that!
Don't ever let me get bored. Don't ever say no you shouldn't do that.
Well, being cooped up in the house for nearly 2 weeks can drive anyone insane. Couldn't drive anywhere because of the painkillers being too strong and narcotic based (didn't want to lose my license)so all I could do was watch telly, remote into work and play on facebook.
Well today was the first day that I decided that I was going to do something that I was told was too soon and then after that I was going to go celebrate my pending nephews birth with a baby-shower for my sister Laura.
I went and did a 4km walking trail (mostly sand) and then climbed a large sand-dune. I burnt 800 calories and it definitely cured my boredom.
The baby shower was awesome too. I won two prizes - one for getting BABY BINGO and the other for getting the most desired features list (ie what my sister wants her baby to look like). I like prizes. It was interesting food wise as all I ate was 1/3 the inside of a party pie (3 mouthfuls) and a custard cup and I shared a cup cake with mum (she ate the cupcake I had the icing).
Can't wait until I can start mushies.
Well, being cooped up in the house for nearly 2 weeks can drive anyone insane. Couldn't drive anywhere because of the painkillers being too strong and narcotic based (didn't want to lose my license)so all I could do was watch telly, remote into work and play on facebook.
Well today was the first day that I decided that I was going to do something that I was told was too soon and then after that I was going to go celebrate my pending nephews birth with a baby-shower for my sister Laura.
I went and did a 4km walking trail (mostly sand) and then climbed a large sand-dune. I burnt 800 calories and it definitely cured my boredom.
The baby shower was awesome too. I won two prizes - one for getting BABY BINGO and the other for getting the most desired features list (ie what my sister wants her baby to look like). I like prizes. It was interesting food wise as all I ate was 1/3 the inside of a party pie (3 mouthfuls) and a custard cup and I shared a cup cake with mum (she ate the cupcake I had the icing).
Can't wait until I can start mushies.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Post Op - Day 8
It's weigh in day for me for the 12wbt, and guess what I am 6kg down from my weight on the day of my operation. Woohoo me. Means I only have 1.5kg to go until I am back at the weight I was at the end of round 2 pre-op for lapband removal.
I think a lot of that weight loss can be attributed to the healthy options I chose to have during that week in the way of soups - all 12wbt recipes watered down to a broth-like consistency.
Next week I'll be doing soups and protein shakes, at least the soups won't need to be watered down just pureed.
Only drawback so far is that I still have lots of gas (burping and farting a lot) and the shoulder tip pain is unbearable. I hope it goes away soon.
I think a lot of that weight loss can be attributed to the healthy options I chose to have during that week in the way of soups - all 12wbt recipes watered down to a broth-like consistency.
Next week I'll be doing soups and protein shakes, at least the soups won't need to be watered down just pureed.
Only drawback so far is that I still have lots of gas (burping and farting a lot) and the shoulder tip pain is unbearable. I hope it goes away soon.
Friday, September 23, 2011
Post Op - Day 3
So I went in and had my lap-band placed in at S.J.O.G Murdoch at 9.30am on Tuesday the 20th of September. There was a lady in the room with me also having a band put in and she did remarkably well. She actually got to go home on the Wednesday. I was allowed to go home on the Wednesday but as I was suffering nausea they said I could stay another night to be on the safe side and hubby suggested I stay one more night. At least they have the drugs on hand when you need them. Still slightly nauseous today but I think a lot of it has to do with the gas and the shoulder pain.
There's been a lot more changes to the process post op since I last had the band put in and so have been devouring all this new information.
I have 5 scars, and they are in the same spot as the 5 from when it was removed and of course those were in the same place as the original placement. This is great for me as it means that I don't have multiple scars for these ops just the same ones and as I don't have too much issue with scarring it's great.
Anyways, here is a little hello video from me :)
There's been a lot more changes to the process post op since I last had the band put in and so have been devouring all this new information.
I have 5 scars, and they are in the same spot as the 5 from when it was removed and of course those were in the same place as the original placement. This is great for me as it means that I don't have multiple scars for these ops just the same ones and as I don't have too much issue with scarring it's great.
Anyways, here is a little hello video from me :)
Monday, September 19, 2011
Tomorrow begins a brand new chapter
Tomorrow I go back into hospital to have my much needed lap-band put back in.
Having gained over 8kg since having it removed, it has confirmed to me that in my weight-loss journey for me to succeed I cannot do it without the lap-band.
Here's to tomorrow. A video blog will come in a few days time after I get back out of hospital.
Bec xx
Having gained over 8kg since having it removed, it has confirmed to me that in my weight-loss journey for me to succeed I cannot do it without the lap-band.
Here's to tomorrow. A video blog will come in a few days time after I get back out of hospital.
Bec xx
Sunday, September 11, 2011
I really need to get into this Blogging thingo
So, from now on I will regularly update my blog.
It's going to be the one thing that keeps me honest as everyone can see what is going in with me and pull me back into line if need be.
Here is my latest video update, pretty much catching up on the past 2 weeks worth of preseason tasks.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_byZyxs-DA
With the round kicking off tomorrow - Monday 12th September - It's time to be the better person that I know I can be.
It's going to be the one thing that keeps me honest as everyone can see what is going in with me and pull me back into line if need be.
Here is my latest video update, pretty much catching up on the past 2 weeks worth of preseason tasks.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_byZyxs-DA
With the round kicking off tomorrow - Monday 12th September - It's time to be the better person that I know I can be.
Friday, September 2, 2011
Pictures really do show the results
So I came across some pictures hidden away in a box.
The ones on the left are when I was size 26/28 and the ones on the right are more recent (taken in Brisbane at the 12wbt workout and finale) and I am a size 16/18.
I'm in a happy place knowing I have changed so much.
The ones on the left are when I was size 26/28 and the ones on the right are more recent (taken in Brisbane at the 12wbt workout and finale) and I am a size 16/18.
I'm in a happy place knowing I have changed so much.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Preseason Task 4 - Gear Up
As long as I have the Perth Crew I have all I need.
But I do have the following:
DVD's
Wii Zumba
Gym Membership
Cook books
Heart Rate Monitor
Aasics Gels
Adidas Tops
Perth Crew Tops and Hat
Home Gym
Cross Trainer
Exercise Bike
Treadmill
Weights
Boxing Bag Unit
But I do have the following:
DVD's
Wii Zumba
Gym Membership
Cook books
Heart Rate Monitor
Aasics Gels
Adidas Tops
Perth Crew Tops and Hat
Home Gym
Cross Trainer
Exercise Bike
Treadmill
Weights
Boxing Bag Unit
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Preseason Task 3 - Setting my Goals
My goals for the next 12 months
1 Month Goals
To lose 2kg per week.
To run 1km without stopping
To complete a workout burning 800-1000 calories
How I Will Get There
Good diet and exercise through 12wbt
start the couch to 5k programme
find a workout that I like that has the intesity to burn the calories
3 Month Goals
To lose 20-25kg
To run 3km without stopping
To go down a size in clothing from size 18/16 to 16/14
How I Will Get There
Good diet and exercise through 12wbt
continue the couch to 5k program
make sure to do tone exercises
6 Month Goals
lose at least 30kg
enter into mini fun runs of approx 5km
get down to a size 12-14
How I Will Get There
Good diet and exercise through 12wbt
continue the couch to 5k program (or restart if finished)
make sure to continue to do tone exercises
12 Month Goals
fall pregnant naturally
otherwise to have lost 30+ kg so can get medical assistance (as need to be under BMI of 32)
How I Will Get There
Good diet and exercise through 12wbt
1 Month Goals
To lose 2kg per week.
To run 1km without stopping
To complete a workout burning 800-1000 calories
How I Will Get There
Good diet and exercise through 12wbt
start the couch to 5k programme
find a workout that I like that has the intesity to burn the calories
3 Month Goals
To lose 20-25kg
To run 3km without stopping
To go down a size in clothing from size 18/16 to 16/14
How I Will Get There
Good diet and exercise through 12wbt
continue the couch to 5k program
make sure to do tone exercises
6 Month Goals
lose at least 30kg
enter into mini fun runs of approx 5km
get down to a size 12-14
How I Will Get There
Good diet and exercise through 12wbt
continue the couch to 5k program (or restart if finished)
make sure to continue to do tone exercises
12 Month Goals
fall pregnant naturally
otherwise to have lost 30+ kg so can get medical assistance (as need to be under BMI of 32)
How I Will Get There
Good diet and exercise through 12wbt
Sunday, August 28, 2011
City To Surf - Perth
This is a major milestone for me. Thought I may not be allowed to even compete since I only had stomach surgery less then 3 weeks ago. But my surgeon said I could compete as long as I was mindful of any soreness etc. Well, I just JFDI’d it and completed the 12km walk in just under 2hrs and 30 mins.
I was determined to give it a red hot go as far as my post surgery body would take me. There was a moment there I was about to give up and my husband said to me “What would Mish say if you quit now?” and “JUst get into the zone and Just F’n DO it” and so with his support we made it to the end
After the race, hubby said to me. “your mindset is so changed. Last year you wouldn’t have even contemplated the 12km walk, and to be honest you didn’t even sign up for the 4km because you didn’t think you could do it. Now this year you did a 12km walk after surgery. I am so proud of you and this is your achievement that you can improve on in the future”
I was determined to give it a red hot go as far as my post surgery body would take me. There was a moment there I was about to give up and my husband said to me “What would Mish say if you quit now?” and “JUst get into the zone and Just F’n DO it” and so with his support we made it to the end
After the race, hubby said to me. “your mindset is so changed. Last year you wouldn’t have even contemplated the 12km walk, and to be honest you didn’t even sign up for the 4km because you didn’t think you could do it. Now this year you did a 12km walk after surgery. I am so proud of you and this is your achievement that you can improve on in the future”
My results:
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Time to go home
Well Sunday came.
Spent the morning walking around Brisbane City with Elaine Creevy & Helen and Shannon Mansfield. Popping into various stores. I still bought more clothing.
Bought 2 tops and a dress from Chicabooti.
A top from Supre.
And of course a sports top from the Adidas store. And of course look at what I happened to see in the store.
After the shopping we went across the river to the South Bank Markets and wandered around there for a few hours.
We headed back to the hotel just in time to head off for the airport.
Flying home to Perth was so different to flying over to Brisbane. Going over to Brisbane I flew the red-eye Jetstar no frills. Coming home was with Qantas. I loved the Qantas service - bigger seats, more leg room, inflight movie, dinner and drinks all included in the price, pillows, blankets, headphones and just awesome comfort. The only mar to the flight was the storm front we hit as we arrived in Perth. Turbulence plus. But I'd definitely fly Qantas again.
Spent the morning walking around Brisbane City with Elaine Creevy & Helen and Shannon Mansfield. Popping into various stores. I still bought more clothing.
Bought 2 tops and a dress from Chicabooti.
A top from Supre.
And of course a sports top from the Adidas store. And of course look at what I happened to see in the store.
After the shopping we went across the river to the South Bank Markets and wandered around there for a few hours.
We headed back to the hotel just in time to head off for the airport.
Flying home to Perth was so different to flying over to Brisbane. Going over to Brisbane I flew the red-eye Jetstar no frills. Coming home was with Qantas. I loved the Qantas service - bigger seats, more leg room, inflight movie, dinner and drinks all included in the price, pillows, blankets, headphones and just awesome comfort. The only mar to the flight was the storm front we hit as we arrived in Perth. Turbulence plus. But I'd definitely fly Qantas again.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Round 2 - It's a wrap
It was my first trip to Brisbane - or Brisvegas as it is often dubbed.
I was going over for the group workout and also the finale party. Unfortunately the workout was a no-no but I still got to soak in the atmosphere and took heaps of photos.
The Perth Crew - pre workout
Michelle Bridges pumping up the crowd ready for the workout.
Push ups time.
It was an awesome day.
Even better was the evening.
This is me in my finale party dress.
A group shot with Michelle Bridges.
A group shot with most of the Perth Crew.
It was an awesome night.
I was going over for the group workout and also the finale party. Unfortunately the workout was a no-no but I still got to soak in the atmosphere and took heaps of photos.
The Perth Crew - pre workout
Michelle Bridges pumping up the crowd ready for the workout.
Push ups time.
It was an awesome day.
Even better was the evening.
This is me in my finale party dress.
A group shot with Michelle Bridges.
A group shot with most of the Perth Crew.
It was an awesome night.
Friday, August 19, 2011
Party central day 2
Helen, Shannon, Elaine and I went shopping. I bought some clothes, handbag, tea, and some really cute peter Alexander pajama bottoms.
Had sushi for lunch.
Got back about 5:30 and chilled for a bit. Had dinner in the restaurant with the rest of the Perth crew.
In bed by 11:00
Tomorrow is going to be a big day.
Had sushi for lunch.
Got back about 5:30 and chilled for a bit. Had dinner in the restaurant with the rest of the Perth crew.
In bed by 11:00
Tomorrow is going to be a big day.
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Day 1 @ Perth Crew party central Brisbane
So, we arrived in Brisbane about half an hr early. Helen, Shannon and I collected our bags had a quick bite to eat and then caught a bus to the hotel. Our room wasn't ready when we arrived so we tried to catch a few zzzzs in the lounge, some of us could some of us couldn't. When our rm was finally ready 2 hrs later we went up and it was a lift rm, pretty difficult when 2 people can't do stairs. Helen waved her magic wand and got us transferred to another room, right next to the pool. If only I could go swimming it would be so awesome, but alas chlorine and surgical glue don't mix.
Hunger was calling so we went and had Chinese, much better than the Thai place we saw.
Some more of the Perth crew arrived about 3ish and we all went to woolworths to get dome supplies, bread, milk, etc.
At this point I still hadn't had any sleep so was working off adrenalin. We all hopped on a bus and went to Westfield chernside for tea and a look around the shops (helen and I decided we would come back tomorrow for a proper shopping trip)
It was about 11pm by the time I got to bed. The first time in years I'd been up over 40 hrs.
Hunger was calling so we went and had Chinese, much better than the Thai place we saw.
Some more of the Perth crew arrived about 3ish and we all went to woolworths to get dome supplies, bread, milk, etc.
At this point I still hadn't had any sleep so was working off adrenalin. We all hopped on a bus and went to Westfield chernside for tea and a look around the shops (helen and I decided we would come back tomorrow for a proper shopping trip)
It was about 11pm by the time I got to bed. The first time in years I'd been up over 40 hrs.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Leaving on a Jet Plane
Well, in 5 hours time hubby will be driving me to the airport so I can catch the Jetstar red eye flight to Brisbane. Going to Brisbane for the 1st time in my life. But what a good reason to go. I am going over for the 12WBT Round 2 Finale Party. Got an awesome strapless cocktail frock, and I am gonna have heaps of fun with a bunch of awesome people from the Perth Crew.
A big shout-out to my newish friend (formed via the 12WBT) who managed to convince me and most importantly my husband that I should go to Brisbane and have fun. Helen Mansfield you rock and I can't wait to PARTAY with you.
A big shout-out to my newish friend (formed via the 12WBT) who managed to convince me and most importantly my husband that I should go to Brisbane and have fun. Helen Mansfield you rock and I can't wait to PARTAY with you.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
My first attempt at a video intro
So, it’s day too and this is my attempt at introducing myself to the 12wbt new people via video. Laugh along to my first video attempt, hopefully they will improve.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=avGx4n8GXig
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=avGx4n8GXig
Monday, August 15, 2011
12WBT Round 3 - 2011
I’ve made a promise this round, to keep a regular blog. To document all my challenges, obstacles and successes.
A little bit about me:
I am 36 (nearly 37).
I am from Perth in Western Australia.
At my heaviest weight I weighed in at a whopping 190kg.
I had lap-band surgery in 2006.
I lost 54 kg before joining 12wbt for the first time.
My first round in 2010 was a success losing 8.5kg but I put all that weight back on over x-mas,
In 2011, I started again and lost 6kg from round 1, this was great for me considering I was newly diagnosed with depression. Lost 10kg from round 2 and a few extra in between rounds.
On the 3rd of August I was rushed off to hospital with a slipped lap-band and had to have emergency surgery to have it removed.
At the beginning of the year I was wearing size 22-24 tops and size 22-24 pants. Currently I am wearing size 16-18 tops and size 16-18 pants. I may not have lost much weight but I have shrunk.
Today, I start the Pre-season of my 4th round. I am going to keep doing this program until I reach my weight-loss goal or fall pregnant.
So to start the round the right way. Here is a picture of me squeezing all my wobbly bits into a size 16 sports top and sports pants.
A little bit about me:
I am 36 (nearly 37).
I am from Perth in Western Australia.
At my heaviest weight I weighed in at a whopping 190kg.
I had lap-band surgery in 2006.
I lost 54 kg before joining 12wbt for the first time.
My first round in 2010 was a success losing 8.5kg but I put all that weight back on over x-mas,
In 2011, I started again and lost 6kg from round 1, this was great for me considering I was newly diagnosed with depression. Lost 10kg from round 2 and a few extra in between rounds.
On the 3rd of August I was rushed off to hospital with a slipped lap-band and had to have emergency surgery to have it removed.
At the beginning of the year I was wearing size 22-24 tops and size 22-24 pants. Currently I am wearing size 16-18 tops and size 16-18 pants. I may not have lost much weight but I have shrunk.
Today, I start the Pre-season of my 4th round. I am going to keep doing this program until I reach my weight-loss goal or fall pregnant.
So to start the round the right way. Here is a picture of me squeezing all my wobbly bits into a size 16 sports top and sports pants.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
It's been a while
So, yeah, it's been a while.
I have been seeing a psychologist for over a month now. She is great and has really worked through some issues with me. I still have a way to go but at least I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now.
One of the things that my psychologist told me to do today was take a picture of me today and put it side by side of one of me when i was 190kg. As I have a body image issue she wanted me to see that I had achieved a lot and to oat myself on the back. It was a hard thing to do and I still can't see as much of a change as my husband can see in me.
But here is the picture i took and put it together with the one at 190kg and 160kg.
I even set myself a challenge - to get into size 18 clothes this year - so I bought two new exercise tops. A pink and a purple one. Below is a picture of me in the purple size 18 - it's a little tight but it's a start.
I have been seeing a psychologist for over a month now. She is great and has really worked through some issues with me. I still have a way to go but at least I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now.
One of the things that my psychologist told me to do today was take a picture of me today and put it side by side of one of me when i was 190kg. As I have a body image issue she wanted me to see that I had achieved a lot and to oat myself on the back. It was a hard thing to do and I still can't see as much of a change as my husband can see in me.
But here is the picture i took and put it together with the one at 190kg and 160kg.
The one thing I am sure of - is that my arms are the worst part of my body. arrggghhh.
So, now to tackle my other problem, insomnia. Any tips greatly appreciated.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
A mini breakthrough
Had my first psychologists appointment. We focused on my main issues - weight, body image and trying to conceive. I came away from that feeling so much better.
Bec xx
Bec xx
Monday, February 7, 2011
My Committment
I never thought this would happen to me. I have always been a strong person and handled stress relatively well.
Unfortunately it did - I succumbed to the evil Mr Depression and his cousin anxiety.
Some of the issues relating to this has come from my desire to have children, my weightloss issues and my body image issues.
I could easily have just given up on this program, but where would that get me? If I have issues with my weight and they are causing my problem, wouldn’t being here be the exact remedy I need? right?
So here is my committment:
To Michelle - I promise to do all my pre-season tasks to the best of my ability. I promise to put 100% effort into this programme - not just over the 12 weeks but afterwards (because my lack of committment to the round 3 in 2010 saw me put on all the weight I lost and I am back at the same starting point)
To myself - don’t let the illness ruin your life, remember that you have support from your family, friends and doctor, even when you fell like you can’t go on - think about JFDI and do it, you’ll thank yourself in the end.
To my family - I promise to get the old bec back (the happy bec) but to also bring the new bec in 2011 (physically, emotionally and spiritually), I want to live a long life and this is a tool for that, and to find ways to make our family dream come true.
To my doctor - i promise to tell you all my problems so that you can help me understand them and to fix them, i promise to do all my relaxation exercises you have set for me, i promise to eat healthier and to try and not resort to eating because I feel down, I promise to look after my body whilst you are looking after my mind.
And to my fellow 12wbt’ers, I welcome your support and encouragement.
Unfortunately it did - I succumbed to the evil Mr Depression and his cousin anxiety.
Some of the issues relating to this has come from my desire to have children, my weightloss issues and my body image issues.
I could easily have just given up on this program, but where would that get me? If I have issues with my weight and they are causing my problem, wouldn’t being here be the exact remedy I need? right?
So here is my committment:
To Michelle - I promise to do all my pre-season tasks to the best of my ability. I promise to put 100% effort into this programme - not just over the 12 weeks but afterwards (because my lack of committment to the round 3 in 2010 saw me put on all the weight I lost and I am back at the same starting point)
To myself - don’t let the illness ruin your life, remember that you have support from your family, friends and doctor, even when you fell like you can’t go on - think about JFDI and do it, you’ll thank yourself in the end.
To my family - I promise to get the old bec back (the happy bec) but to also bring the new bec in 2011 (physically, emotionally and spiritually), I want to live a long life and this is a tool for that, and to find ways to make our family dream come true.
To my doctor - i promise to tell you all my problems so that you can help me understand them and to fix them, i promise to do all my relaxation exercises you have set for me, i promise to eat healthier and to try and not resort to eating because I feel down, I promise to look after my body whilst you are looking after my mind.
And to my fellow 12wbt’ers, I welcome your support and encouragement.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Learning to climb
So, I went to the doctors and he has diagnosed me with depression and anxiety. He doesn't want to medicate me as he knows how much I want to have children and he said I could pretty much kiss that idea goodbye if we go down the medication route. So instead, he has organised for me to see him again next week so we can get a care plan in place and to organise for me to see a psychologist. We believe (the doc and me) that a good healthy dose of counselling will help. He said he will also help me with everything he can in regards to my weight and trying to have children as he seems to think that getting those two problems under control will have a major impact and help me get better.
Well on Wednesday I will see what I need to do with this care plan.
Baby steps, huh?
Well on Wednesday I will see what I need to do with this care plan.
Baby steps, huh?
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Rock Bottom
It's been coming for weeks now. Thought I could hold it off. It took hold instead. I hit rock bottom and that is where I stay at the moment. The climb back up seems to far to do yet. I need some tools to help me make that climb.
Got an appointment with the doctor on saturday morning. It's a start.
Bec can do it - but not right now :(
Got an appointment with the doctor on saturday morning. It's a start.
Bec can do it - but not right now :(
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Never Give Up
Found this awesome poem today. It's from another blogger on blogspot - http://inspirationalquote.blogspot.com/2006/09/never-give-up-quotes.html
Don't Quit
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
Edgar A. Guest
Don't Quit
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
Edgar A. Guest
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Excuses? Not anymore
So one of the tasks I have to do for the pre-season of Michelle Bridges is to list my excuses and solutions. Didn't realise I had so many. But I do - see below:
Internal Excuses:
1. I'm busy. don't have time
2. I have to travel to get to work
3. gyms are expensive
4. I'm to fat to be seen exercising in public
5. Don't like sweating
6. Don't like pain
7. I fear injury
8. I hate drinking water
Solutions:
1. if the leader of the country can find the time, why can't I? instead of trying to find 1 session of 1hr i should try 3 sessions of 20 minutes of intensity.
2. go to bed earlier at night so I can get up earlier in the morning to exercise before i have to go to work
3. get a home gym *done*
4. exercise at home (see solution 3)
5. sweat is good, use better deoderant, shower once finished, plan exercise so it doesn't interupt your daily routine
6. GORD aggravates when exercising, get Pariet and kick butt *done*
7. It's going to happen at some point just stop worrying about it
8. water is good for you, find some ways to spruce it up - add a bit of lemon or lime or by sparkling.
External Excuses (within my control)
1. work want me to stay longer hours
2. its raining
3. its too hot
4. hubby like me the way I am
5. my animals constantly interupt me
6. hubby interupts me
7. other people interupt me
Solutions:
1. do it occcasionally, don't make a habit of it
2. exercise indoors
3. exercise indoors
4. he'll like you more when you like yourself more.
5. incorporate them into your exercise (walk the dog is a great plan)
6. get him into exercising *done* yay to this one
7. be polite but put yourself first, if they care about me they will understand, and if they don't then they are most likely door-to-door salemen and can go get stuffed.
External Excuses (beyond my control):
1. i'm pregnant (and yes this could be controlled but once it happens it's not)
2. I'm injured
3. I'm financially strapped
4. my depression is out of control
5. i can't access the internet to get my exercise and diet plans
Solutions:
1. i'm sure with help from the doctor we can find pregnancy safe exercises and diet
2. again with the doctor, look into alternatives
3. you've got a supportive family, I'm sure they can help out with healthy food, you know your mum does help now
4. exercise and diet is good for this, just ask your doctor once again (see the theme)
5. ha ha to that, you already have them all printed off and you also have Michelle's books, so how is that an excuse any more?
Internal Excuses:
1. I'm busy. don't have time
2. I have to travel to get to work
3. gyms are expensive
4. I'm to fat to be seen exercising in public
5. Don't like sweating
6. Don't like pain
7. I fear injury
8. I hate drinking water
Solutions:
1. if the leader of the country can find the time, why can't I? instead of trying to find 1 session of 1hr i should try 3 sessions of 20 minutes of intensity.
2. go to bed earlier at night so I can get up earlier in the morning to exercise before i have to go to work
3. get a home gym *done*
4. exercise at home (see solution 3)
5. sweat is good, use better deoderant, shower once finished, plan exercise so it doesn't interupt your daily routine
6. GORD aggravates when exercising, get Pariet and kick butt *done*
7. It's going to happen at some point just stop worrying about it
8. water is good for you, find some ways to spruce it up - add a bit of lemon or lime or by sparkling.
External Excuses (within my control)
1. work want me to stay longer hours
2. its raining
3. its too hot
4. hubby like me the way I am
5. my animals constantly interupt me
6. hubby interupts me
7. other people interupt me
Solutions:
1. do it occcasionally, don't make a habit of it
2. exercise indoors
3. exercise indoors
4. he'll like you more when you like yourself more.
5. incorporate them into your exercise (walk the dog is a great plan)
6. get him into exercising *done* yay to this one
7. be polite but put yourself first, if they care about me they will understand, and if they don't then they are most likely door-to-door salemen and can go get stuffed.
External Excuses (beyond my control):
1. i'm pregnant (and yes this could be controlled but once it happens it's not)
2. I'm injured
3. I'm financially strapped
4. my depression is out of control
5. i can't access the internet to get my exercise and diet plans
Solutions:
1. i'm sure with help from the doctor we can find pregnancy safe exercises and diet
2. again with the doctor, look into alternatives
3. you've got a supportive family, I'm sure they can help out with healthy food, you know your mum does help now
4. exercise and diet is good for this, just ask your doctor once again (see the theme)
5. ha ha to that, you already have them all printed off and you also have Michelle's books, so how is that an excuse any more?
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Unwanted Visitors
Well good ol' Aunty Flo arrived today. She came with her moodswings, her erratic emotions, her cravings and just all around messy. Didn't want her to visit this month, in fact would have been happy if she had not come to visit for at least the better part of this year. Alas, she came, and hopefully she is only here for a few days.
Can't wait until tomorrow, going to Doc's to get my prescription of Pariet. This means I can really get back into the diet and able to eat the foods I need to in my diet (onions and tomatoes for an example) and it will allow me to exercise.
Anyways, gotta go and do my 2nd task for the Michelle Bridges challenge. Might pop back in with an update once I complete it.
Can't wait until tomorrow, going to Doc's to get my prescription of Pariet. This means I can really get back into the diet and able to eat the foods I need to in my diet (onions and tomatoes for an example) and it will allow me to exercise.
Anyways, gotta go and do my 2nd task for the Michelle Bridges challenge. Might pop back in with an update once I complete it.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
To Be or Not To Be
So, I am feeling a little sad. Firstly, I heard my step-mum's dog of 17 years passed away today. She was a beautiful white poodle, and she had been sick for a little while, but still, it's sad when they are like a member of the family. My heart goes out to my step mum Sue and my step-sisters Lisa, Jo and Nicola.
I am also feeling down in the dumps because although my period is not due until friday, I can't help but keep POAS (peeing on a stick) to see if I am pregnant. Unfortunately I have been getting Big Fat Negatives. When I test on Sunday, I put it down to testing too early, but it being late on a Tuesday and only 3 days before Aunt Flo is due, you would think that if one was pregnant I'd be able to tell by now. Hubby is very optomistic and told me to keep hoping until "she" arrives, however, I just don't feel optomistic. To make matters worse, I am suffering a range of symptoms that can be attributed to being pregnant as much as not being pregnant - sore breasts, heartburn, frequent urination, high temps, moodiness, bloating, "stool" problems, flu-like symptoms. I really wish I could not feel so much emotionally invested in this, but I don't know how to change that.
Well, at least if AF comes, I can channel my energy into the 12WBT and hopefully smash some weightloss goals instead.
I am also feeling down in the dumps because although my period is not due until friday, I can't help but keep POAS (peeing on a stick) to see if I am pregnant. Unfortunately I have been getting Big Fat Negatives. When I test on Sunday, I put it down to testing too early, but it being late on a Tuesday and only 3 days before Aunt Flo is due, you would think that if one was pregnant I'd be able to tell by now. Hubby is very optomistic and told me to keep hoping until "she" arrives, however, I just don't feel optomistic. To make matters worse, I am suffering a range of symptoms that can be attributed to being pregnant as much as not being pregnant - sore breasts, heartburn, frequent urination, high temps, moodiness, bloating, "stool" problems, flu-like symptoms. I really wish I could not feel so much emotionally invested in this, but I don't know how to change that.
Well, at least if AF comes, I can channel my energy into the 12WBT and hopefully smash some weightloss goals instead.
Monday, January 24, 2011
I feel strange
Just a short post. Feeling strange today. Can't really put my finger on it, but just have an odd feeling. Can't really tell if it's a good or a bad feeling, it's just a weird feeling.
I am thinking it may be down to being tired. So have taken some multivitamins and will have an early night me thinks.
Bec xx
I am thinking it may be down to being tired. So have taken some multivitamins and will have an early night me thinks.
Bec xx
Saturday, January 22, 2011
A New Blog - A New Year - A New Me
So, its 2011. I have set myself some challenges and some goals, and have decided to document my journey this year, good or bad, by way of a blog. I am not the funniest writer, and a few spelling and grammatical errors will creep in I am sure, but what I will try and do is be real.
Today, I joined Michelle Bridges 12WBT. I did this last year and lost 8.5kg but unfortunately put it all back on just about. But it does work. And with no Xmas period coming up it means I can be more focused.
I am also trying to start a family, and being obese, it means that losing weight is very important. I also just recently got diagnosed with GORD (gastro-oesophageal reflux disease ) and have to wait a week to see the doctor to renew my subscription for Pariet. The unfortunate symptom of my GORD is extreme dibilitating pain in my chest when I try to exercise more than a little bit of walking. But once I have the tablets it will be full steam ahead.
I am also trying to start a family and have been plotting my temperatures with my lovely electronic thermometor, testing my LH levels using pee sticks, spitting on a microscope, checking my cervical fluid, and just plain old logging my moods etc. This is the first time I have done this and this month timed the deed with hubby to the days I was supposed to be most fertile. TTM is due on Friday 28 Jan, and hubby and I are hoping it never comes, however, I have done an early pregnancy test and got a big fat negative so the signs don't look that good this month, but there is still hope until Friday.
SO, here's to the new blog, the new year and a new me.
And if I can remember, lot's of posts.
Today, I joined Michelle Bridges 12WBT. I did this last year and lost 8.5kg but unfortunately put it all back on just about. But it does work. And with no Xmas period coming up it means I can be more focused.
I am also trying to start a family, and being obese, it means that losing weight is very important. I also just recently got diagnosed with GORD (gastro-oesophageal reflux disease ) and have to wait a week to see the doctor to renew my subscription for Pariet. The unfortunate symptom of my GORD is extreme dibilitating pain in my chest when I try to exercise more than a little bit of walking. But once I have the tablets it will be full steam ahead.
I am also trying to start a family and have been plotting my temperatures with my lovely electronic thermometor, testing my LH levels using pee sticks, spitting on a microscope, checking my cervical fluid, and just plain old logging my moods etc. This is the first time I have done this and this month timed the deed with hubby to the days I was supposed to be most fertile. TTM is due on Friday 28 Jan, and hubby and I are hoping it never comes, however, I have done an early pregnancy test and got a big fat negative so the signs don't look that good this month, but there is still hope until Friday.
SO, here's to the new blog, the new year and a new me.
And if I can remember, lot's of posts.
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