In Dec 2006 I was facing the prospect of an early grave, Weighing in at a hefty 190kg+ I was told that if I didn't lose weight I'd probably die. A rather sobering thought. I was forced into having Lap Band surgery as a way of saving me from that early grave. At the time it was the best thing I could have done and I lost 30kg intially, then nothing. 18 months of yoying between 155 - 165kg and just not getting anywhere. I realised that I need to change my head as well my body. It still took me another 8 months to get my head in the right space.
In Feb 2009, I joined the Biggest Loser Club. This helped me to lose another 35kg over a 12 month period, getting down to 125kg. My membership then ran out and I did not renew it.
I thought that I had myself under control and decided to go back to the lap-band doctor and get my band adjusted. Bad move as it ended up being too tight and the only food I could keep down were liquids and icecream. At the same time I was going through a financial issue so was unable to go back to the doctors to get the band re-adjusted and unfortunately it also meant that I put back on 10kg and had already done damage to my stomach and oesophagus (which meant developing GORD).
In September 2010, I took the plunge and joined the Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation. Between Sept and Dec I managed to lose 8.5kg but also a massive load of cm's off my body to the point of being able to fit into size 22/24 clothes. Not bad for a gal who in 2006 was wearing handmade size 30+.
The sad thing is I also had a miscarriage (5 wks) right smack bang in the middle of the program and it really messes with your head.
My doc is also assisting me with my weightloss as with his help (and hubby of course) we are trying to have a baby. So he made us do all the tests to see what our blood sugars, blood cells, cholesterol, blood pressure, thyroid, hormone levels etc are so that we could fix any issues that arose. Well the great thing is that I have good cholesterol levels, normal blood pressure, no signs of diabetes YAY, my thyroid is normal (although secretly I had wished it was underactive so that I could have taken tablets and lost heaps of weight - but alas my weight problem is due to overeating and lack of exercise ha ha) and even my hormones are normal, which means that the only thing that should be holding me back from being a mother is timing and my weight (although we haven't ruled out the oven yet but I have to undergo at least 3-6 months of monitoring my cycles before we can move on to other things).
So bring on 2011. This year is the year I lose the weight and become a mum. I am determined. And in the words of William Ernest Henley
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
