Had my first psychologists appointment. We focused on my main issues - weight, body image and trying to conceive. I came away from that feeling so much better.
Bec xx
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Monday, February 7, 2011
My Committment
I never thought this would happen to me. I have always been a strong person and handled stress relatively well.
Unfortunately it did - I succumbed to the evil Mr Depression and his cousin anxiety.
Some of the issues relating to this has come from my desire to have children, my weightloss issues and my body image issues.
I could easily have just given up on this program, but where would that get me? If I have issues with my weight and they are causing my problem, wouldn’t being here be the exact remedy I need? right?
So here is my committment:
To Michelle - I promise to do all my pre-season tasks to the best of my ability. I promise to put 100% effort into this programme - not just over the 12 weeks but afterwards (because my lack of committment to the round 3 in 2010 saw me put on all the weight I lost and I am back at the same starting point)
To myself - don’t let the illness ruin your life, remember that you have support from your family, friends and doctor, even when you fell like you can’t go on - think about JFDI and do it, you’ll thank yourself in the end.
To my family - I promise to get the old bec back (the happy bec) but to also bring the new bec in 2011 (physically, emotionally and spiritually), I want to live a long life and this is a tool for that, and to find ways to make our family dream come true.
To my doctor - i promise to tell you all my problems so that you can help me understand them and to fix them, i promise to do all my relaxation exercises you have set for me, i promise to eat healthier and to try and not resort to eating because I feel down, I promise to look after my body whilst you are looking after my mind.
And to my fellow 12wbt’ers, I welcome your support and encouragement.
Unfortunately it did - I succumbed to the evil Mr Depression and his cousin anxiety.
Some of the issues relating to this has come from my desire to have children, my weightloss issues and my body image issues.
I could easily have just given up on this program, but where would that get me? If I have issues with my weight and they are causing my problem, wouldn’t being here be the exact remedy I need? right?
So here is my committment:
To Michelle - I promise to do all my pre-season tasks to the best of my ability. I promise to put 100% effort into this programme - not just over the 12 weeks but afterwards (because my lack of committment to the round 3 in 2010 saw me put on all the weight I lost and I am back at the same starting point)
To myself - don’t let the illness ruin your life, remember that you have support from your family, friends and doctor, even when you fell like you can’t go on - think about JFDI and do it, you’ll thank yourself in the end.
To my family - I promise to get the old bec back (the happy bec) but to also bring the new bec in 2011 (physically, emotionally and spiritually), I want to live a long life and this is a tool for that, and to find ways to make our family dream come true.
To my doctor - i promise to tell you all my problems so that you can help me understand them and to fix them, i promise to do all my relaxation exercises you have set for me, i promise to eat healthier and to try and not resort to eating because I feel down, I promise to look after my body whilst you are looking after my mind.
And to my fellow 12wbt’ers, I welcome your support and encouragement.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Learning to climb
So, I went to the doctors and he has diagnosed me with depression and anxiety. He doesn't want to medicate me as he knows how much I want to have children and he said I could pretty much kiss that idea goodbye if we go down the medication route. So instead, he has organised for me to see him again next week so we can get a care plan in place and to organise for me to see a psychologist. We believe (the doc and me) that a good healthy dose of counselling will help. He said he will also help me with everything he can in regards to my weight and trying to have children as he seems to think that getting those two problems under control will have a major impact and help me get better.
Well on Wednesday I will see what I need to do with this care plan.
Baby steps, huh?
Well on Wednesday I will see what I need to do with this care plan.
Baby steps, huh?
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Rock Bottom
It's been coming for weeks now. Thought I could hold it off. It took hold instead. I hit rock bottom and that is where I stay at the moment. The climb back up seems to far to do yet. I need some tools to help me make that climb.
Got an appointment with the doctor on saturday morning. It's a start.
Bec can do it - but not right now :(
Got an appointment with the doctor on saturday morning. It's a start.
Bec can do it - but not right now :(
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